(happiness is…the photo above)
We did it! We are officially husband and wife. I can’t say that anything feels too different just yet. Well, other than the fact I giggle like a school girl every time I introduce Brian as my husband, oh, and when I catch a glimpse of his wedding ring my heart skips a beat. Ok, so maybe a few things have changed around here but overall it still feels like us. A slightly calmer more settled version of us. We can finally close the “planning a wedding chapter” in our lives. A chapter that was fun at times but challenging a lot of the time. It’s exhausting…both emotionally and financially to plan a wedding. But despite all that we made it! And you couldn’t find two happier people to be married.
The last ten days has felt like a total blur. In a good way though…a really good way. The funny thing is, I expected that they would but in a really horrible way. In an anxiety filled way. In a overwhelminly blurry way. I imagined being stuck in my head on the big day. Filled with fear something would go wrong.
But, what happened on our wedding weekend completely surprised me. I wasn’t anxious, not a bit. Instead I was wound up on joy, love and gratitude. I was surrounded by family and friends who had come near and far to stand by me as I married the love of my life. Such an overwhelmingly good feeling. How lucky am I? And what the hell did I have to be anxious about? The only thing I felt was…sure. Sure that Brian was who I am meant to be with…sure that I lucked out in the friends and family department…sure that Brian and I would always stand by each others side in this life…and sure that everything that has happened in my life up to this point (the good and the bad) had led me to exactly where I stand now.
The day was perfect. From start to finish. I spent the morning at a hotel with all my bridesmaids and my mama getting ready. We sipped mimosas, talked about life, marriage, weddings and babies. We laughed a lot. Each one of them showed up with huge smiles on their faces that morning ready to celebrate. I could feel the love in the room and it put me in a really centered place.
One of my favorite pep talks was from my girlfriend Ali who recently got married. She pulled me in a bathroom and said “if you get too overwhelmed walking down the aisle or during the ceremony focus on something really unemotional like a plant or somebody who you don’t really care for.” HA. Good talk. Good talk.
By one pm we were all zipping up our dresses and heading out the door…and that’s when it set in. It was game time and I had never been more ready to go.
more on wedding tomorrow…
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