After two glorious days in Ojai last weekend, at an amazing Manifestation workshop with Jennifer Pastiloff ( I will share more about it in a later post!), I woke up Sunday morning with a sore throat and decided that I didn’t have the energy for another full day of yoga. When I called Brian to tell him that I would be home by noon instead of six, he acted very strange. He actually sounded disappointed I was coming home (I now know that this was because I put a serious time crunch on his set up!) I asked, “What’s wrong with you? You don’t want me to come home? You aren’t excited to see me?” blah blah blah. He tried to backtrack but the damage was done- my feelings were hurt and I spent the WHOLE two-hour car ride home annoyed with him.
When I pulled up to our house, I noticed that all the shades were drawn on the windows. How strange, I thought. Brian usually loves to open all the shades and let the light pour in….maybe he went out? As I stared up at the windows contemplating this, I saw his little head poke out from behind one of the shades. With a surprised look on his face, he yelled, “hi babe!” I was still annoyed by our earlier conversation, so I just muttered a flat, “hi”.
Let me set the scene for you. I was dressed in pajamas, I had no make-up on, my hair was in an unbrushed bun on my head and I hadn’t showered in two days. I was a sight to behold! But I didn’t care because my plan was to climb back into bed with a book and relax for the afternoon.
I dragged myself up the stairs, opened the front door and saw that our living room was covered in rose petals, flickering candles and vases of red and white roses. The whole situation was such a surprise that it took me a minute to register what was happening. I thought…why the hell are there rose petals all over our house??? When I saw a smiley and nervous Brian standing in the middle of it all, it hit me what was happening and then I thought…I can’t believe I’m wearing fucking pajamas right now!!!
Brian got down on one knee and said a bunch of incredibly romantic and beautiful things, all of which are a bit of a blur because I was having an out-of-body experience. But it ended with…”Will you marry me?” I was so overcome with emotion and excitement that I threw myself down on the ground and wrapped my arms around him (I broke my sunglasses and almost lit myself on fire in the process. It was graceful) We cried, laughed and kissed…soaking in the moment. Then Brian said…”Don’t you want to see the ring??!”
In the heat of the moment I had forgotten about the ring!! I screamed…”YES!” He opened the box and inside was the exact ring I wanted. He had picked perfectly. A very good sign that I am marrying the right man.
Holy shit!! I’m getting married!!!
I am the luckiest girl in the world to be marrying this man. He is the kindest, most generous, creative, soulful, intelligent, honest, funny and sexy man I have ever met- he’s my best friend and I can’t wait to be his wife.
I have been walking around in a daze of joy the last few days. I am so grateful.
…365 til wedding?