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be fucking amazing!

31 Oct

BE FUCKING AMAZING

Jennifer Pastiloff’s manifestation yoga retreat will always hold a special place in my heart. The whole weekend was magical- including the fact that Brian proposed to me when I got home! I manifested a husband, people! I also walked away with a lighter heart, less anxiety, a new sense of purpose, hysterical memories, a sense of community and new friends.

I also learned I’m not alone in feeling insane sometimes!

Leading up to the retreat, I was feeling nervous about it. I knew that the experience would force me out of my comfort zone. First of all, as ridiculous as this may sound, I usually hate organized group activities. I was the kind of kid who never went to summer camp because even then I hated organized group activities. I am still that kid as much as I pretend not to be.

I have also been battling anxiety recently and I was feeling energetically heavy from it. Boxed in by it. For those of you who have never experienced anxiety, it can be an overwhelming force- it feels like a big heavy cloak and I wasn’t sure I had it in me to go but I knew I needed something. I knew I needed to push myself out of it and out of my comfort zone because I have learned, through tackling my goals on 365 til 30 the last year, that the other side of my comfort zone is a pretty incredible place. It’s a more alive, aware and brave place. It’s the space I want to live my life in.

So I packed up my car, and off I went in search of adventure.

As I have said before, Jennifer is a force of nature. She’s incredibly positive and passionate as well as brutally honest about her own struggles with depression and anorexia. She isn’t running around the room sprinkling fairy dust on everyone and telling them to just be happy. While her retreats are about “manifesting your dreams”, they are also about letting go of the baggage that holds you back. About asking yourself to take an honest look at yourself and ask hard questions like…

“If I wasn’t afraid I would _________”

“Where am I playing small in my life?”

The first activity on the itinerary was opening circle. As you can imagine from the title we all (46 of us!) sat in a circle in the yoga studio and introduced ourselves. I was touched by how many different types of people Jennifer brings together. The room was filled with a trust and openness you don’t often feel with strangers. We all knew we were there to do work. We announced to the room what we were there to manifest. It was an incredibly powerful feeling to announce to a room of strangers what I was manifesting in my life.

I AM MANIFESTING A BEST SELLING BOOK.

I said it loud and I said it proud.

Jennifer shared her steps to manifesting, which I thought were just fabulous-

1.) Give a voice to your dreams. Set your intentions.

2) Write down your goals. Affirm in advance that you already have them.

3) Thank the universe, in advance, for what you are manifesting.

4) Expect to be delighted! Be in the feeling of what you want to receive.

5) Speak your goals with excitement and joy as if they are already in motion. 
Keep them fresh in your consciousness daily.

6) Take action on your dreams. Step out of your comfort zone.

7) Trust. Trust is the bridge between your asking and its manifestation.

8) Surrender and let go. Release what is no longer right for you.

9) Say YES! YES! YES! to your dreams and to who you are.

After the opening ceremony the rest of the weekend just flowed, we practiced yoga, we laughed, we danced, we cried, we wrote, we sang, we let go, we drank wine, we ate and we became a tribe. A tribe we warmly named the “Be Fucking Amazing’s”. Has a ring to it, huh?

I think pictures can speak volumes about an experience…especially when they are taken by the amazing photographer, Joe Longo.

Ojai here I come!

19 Oct

 

 

 

 

(note: the above photo is not me! Although, I’m working on it!)

I leave for my yoga retreat with the fabulous Jennifer Pastiloff this afternoon! I’m SO excited. I choose this retreat for a few reasons-

1. I have a girl crush on Jen. I met her a few years ago when I took a yoga class from her and was immediately taken with her big, bold and joyful presence. She’s full of life. Over the last year Jen has become a dear friend of mine and I am so grateful to know her.

2. It’s a manifestation retreat! Jennifer is a firm believer in manifesting your dreams and brings that into all of her classes. Let the manifesting begin!

3. I love Ojai

4. It seems like it will be a fun weekend. The itinerary made me smile. There is wine tasting tonight, a dance party on Saturday night and a karaoke yoga class!

I’ll be back next week with stories and pictures.

What are you guys up to this weekend??

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“You get to decide as many times as you like just who you are. Moment to moment. Breath to breath.” – Jennifer Pastiloff

zeeee list is done!

25 Jul

I’ve certainly taken my sweet ass time deciding on what my new goals for the year will be, haven’t I? In my defense, I found it extremely hard to choose them this time around, maybe because I now know how much effort it takes to make them a reality and I want to choose them carefully. I also really want to be thoughtful about what I want to accomplish this year- my first year as a thirty year old. I want to pick goals that feel like the organic next step for me in my career, relationships and life.

My long time readers may notice that a few of my goals have been carried over from last year. Why? Well, because I haven’t accomplished them yet and I still want to!

Let the fun begin! Here goes…

 Volunteer as a big sister

I decided that when I volunteer this year I want to work with children. I also now know, after last years volunteer work at PATH (People Assisting The Homeless) that I prefer working on a one on one basis. Armed with those two pieces of information, I settled on volunteering as a big sister. I am realllllly looking forward to this experience.

Overseas trip with Brian

Brian and I both LOVE to travel (Thank God because I honestly don’t know if I could be with somebody who didn’t love to travel too) The last big trip we took together was to Nicaragua in 2011 and it was amazing experience. Well, other than the stomach bug we both got, but hey, it only brought us closer. We have both been visualizing another trip somewhere foreign and are on a mission to accomplish it this year. Our top choice would be a trip to Thailand and Cambodia but we would pretty much go anywhere for the right deal as long is it was out of the country and neither of us had been before.

Nicaragua April 2011

Art

I have always been a fan of the book “The Artists Way” (side note- you must read it if you haven’t. Even if you don’t consider yourself an artist it’s still inspiring) One of the tenets that I love most in the book is the idea of taking yourself on artists dates once a week. What’s an artist date? Anything that brings you inspiration and makes you feel alive- a trip to the museum by yourself, a walk in a new neighborhood, painting classes, pottery classes, photo projects, spend the day watching a bunch of old films, go somewhere you haven’t been since you were a child, take yourself on a picnic in the park, finger paint, garden….you see where I am going with this right? I got to thinking about how long it’s been since I have made time for such things in my life on a regular basis…too long. So this year I want to get back into carving out the time to take myself on a date once a week.

New living space

We really need to move from our sweet 1 bedroom home into something different. It makes us both sad because we LOVE our little place by the beach (morning walks on the sand are hard to beat!) but we really want a bigger space, a yard, an updated kitchen and I personally want a bigger closet- my shoes are cramped!

French Bulldog

Frank! I’m coming for you!

Ballet classes

When I was a little girl, I danced ballet for 10 years and I found such joy in it. The other day I got to thinking..why can’t I take ballet again at 30? Clearly, I’m not trying to become a professional dancer or anything but there must be classes for a girl to have a little fun in, right? So what it’s been twelve years (oy) since I put my point shoes on! Like riding a bike, right?!

Publish my writing

This is a carry over from last year. I. Still. Want. To. Accomplish. This. Goal…very badly. Onward!

Yoga retreat

Considering I am a yoga nut, I can’t believe that I have never been on a retreat. This year that is going to change! I signed up for Jennifer Pastiloff’s Manifestation Yoga Retreat in Ojai, CA in October. If you have read my blog before than you know that Jennifer is not only one of my favorite yoga teachers, she’s also a dear friend. Her retreats are known to be beyond amazing and I am so excited! I also get to sleep in a yurt with a bunch of other people….so there’s that to be excited about too.