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20 Feb

Considering Brian ends up choosing most of the movies we watch on movie night, I decided to force him to watch “Julie & Julia” (I think he actually liked it) last night. I had seen the film when it originally came out but I have been wanting to see it again ever since I started this blog. For those of you who have not seen it  I will give you a quick breakdown- Julie Powell (played by Amy Adams) is in a rut…her life feels like it’s going nowhere, she hates her job and she’s feeling pretty blah. So in an inspired moment she starts a blog titled the “Julie & Julia project” where she tackles 527 Julia Child recipes in 365 days. In the process turning her life around and finding her joy again. Clearly you can see why I may have wanted to see the film again?? It shares a lot of the same themes as 365 til 30.

I loved the scenes that followed Julia Child (played by Meryl Streep) living in Paris. I found so much inspiration in seeing then considering my upcoming trip and obsession with Paris. I went to bed dreaming of Paris! Oh and  the cooking scenes with both women made me to want to tackle a recipe tonight! I actually have a Julia Child cookbook that I am going to pick a recipe from for tonight- post to follow. But what inspired me most was watching Julie find her joy again through a blog/project while tracking the ups and downs of the process. I totally related to the scene where Julie has a breakdown on her kitchen floor and turns to her husband, and asks with tears in her eyes, “What happens if I can’t tackle all the recipes?!?” It reminded me so much of the night I came home a few months ago from a crazy day of tango, baking and French and had a melt down on our bed. As I sobbed I asked Brian “What happens if I can’t do any of the goals well or get them all finished in 365 days?!? Huh, then what Brian?!” He looked at me and said “I think your readers will only be sad if you don’t get Frank.”

I have to admit I still get wrapped up with how this is going to come together in the remaining 5 months until my 30th birthday. Am I really going to get all these goals accomplished? Is that why you guys like my blog? To see if I succeed? Or is it the process? I am in a constant battle with myself about it. My type A personality is very focused on the goals to the point where I get a little crazy while my zen personality is just enjoying the process.

So my question for you is….Is it the result or the process?

With that said I am off to tackle a Julia Child recipe.

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“Find something you’re passionate about and keep tremendously interested in it.”
Julia Child

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18 Nov

INSPIRATIONS, GRATITUDE & SURPRISES

I had a shift in perspective yesterday and it has instilled something in me that I hadn’t even noticed was missing. The shift caused me to feel tapped into the magic of it all again. You see, recently I have been feeling a bit anxious. Surprising huh?! Kate anxious!? Anyway, I have just been feeling all abuzz with emotions. Recently a string of wonderfully unexpected events have happened in regards to 365 til 30 which have made me feel like I am living in a dream world. I’m delighted but also a bit overwhelmed with excitement and fear. I guess I am excited by the events but fearful they won’t go the way I hope. What happens when our dreams actually come true? Or what if you get really close and then they don’t come true? Do you bounce back from that?

When I start to get overwhelmed with emotion I tend to focus on things that don’t matter. I spent much too long obsessing about what toe nail color to get as if the decision was going to affect the rest of my life.

I try to answer questions that don’t have answers. Like, What will my life look in 5 years? Will I be happy? Will Brian and I be happy together? Will my career be where I want it to be?

I also try to control outcomes that aren’t in my control and I have to remind myself that sadly, I am not general manager of the universe.

But, most importantly I lose sight of the magic of it all because I am too busy strangling the shit out of it.

When I start to get all jumbled up I always call my life coach Maggi. There is no one  who centers me faster. She cut right to the point and asked,

“Why did you start 365 til 30, Kate?”

I thought about it for minute and thought…well this is a ridiculous question. Why is she asking me this? Haven’t we talked about 365 til 30 a million times? She knows exactly why I started 365 til 30. I decided to answer her despite my thoughts about the question.

“Well, I started 365 til 30 because I wanted to dream bigger for myself, I wanted to take life by the horns, I wanted to be present and thankful for each day and I wanted to enjoy the journey. I wanted to trust the process.”

As I said it, it hit me why she was asking me.

She said…

“Then trust the process Kate”

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“All our progress is an unfolding, like a vegetable bud. You have first an instinct, then an opinion, then a knowledge as the plant has root, bud, and fruit. Trust the instinct to the end, though you can render no reason.” 

Ralph Waldo Emerson