Tag Archives: grace

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12 Jan

My head has been a bit of a crazy place this week. I have wanted to do exactly what the dog in the picture above is doing – bury my head and hide. I actually did climb in bed a few times and bury my head under pillows just to get some silence. It’s not really a helpful response to overstimulation. I am working on this. You see a funny thing has happened recently…as my readership has grown so has my need/want to please. I’ve grown to care so much for readers I don’t even know. I want to make them happy and inspire them and amuse them and confide in them and be honest with them…I want to do it all everyday. Kinda impossible huh?

Over the last month or so I have received lots of blog input. Which I love getting by the way so please don’t stop! But it’s been a funny experience because everyone has an opinion and everybody has a favorite kind of 365 post- a different reason they read it everyday. Some like the funny…some like the serious…some like the buddhist ones..some love imaginary Frank…some HATE imaginary Frank…some are totally bored by my desire to drive across the USA…some LOVE the idea of driving across the USA so much so that they email me and ask to join…some people love the tango…some hate it…some people are obsessed with my goals…some not…some love reading about Brian…some wish I would stop sharing about Brian. I think you get the point right?

My favorite was when my father told me that “he misses my spiritual posts”. So sweet. I wouldn’t have thought he was my spiritual post target audience. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a spiritual guy but it’s not like I have ever found him meditating or anything. I said ” Well Dad it’s kinda hard to be spiritual on cue, somedays the world isn’t falling apart and my biggest concern is what to have for dinner.”

When I started 365 til 30 I promised myself that I would always write from an honest place, that I would take this year to really explore myself and the world around me. I don’t want to change that. I don’t want to edit myself or write to please others because then my readers aren’t getting the truth of the journey, not to mention I won’t be getting the truth of the journey either. That was the whole point of this year and this project. To live. To experience. To manifest. To fail. To enjoy the ride.

So I have come to the conclusion that while I may not please everyone everyday, I can promise you all that I will always be honest with you about what is swirling in my head that day even if it’s just the state of my hair.

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“Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.”

 John Jakes

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(I love this song. Although it does seem to make the above post seem much more dramatic. HA)

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22 Aug

DAY 1 : VOLUNTEER

Yesterday was one of the best days of my 29th year. I was humbled and inspired by the human spirit. My heart was so was so filled with emotion, I thought it was going to burst. This experience left me with a change in perspective and very grateful for my life. I will be going back many many many Sundays.

When starting 365 til 30, I knew I wanted to work with the homeless for my volunteer goal but had no organization in mind. Last week I was on the internet and stumbled upon Food On Foot and from what I saw on the site, signed up to volunteer.

For the last 807 Sundays, Food On Foot founder, Jay Goldinger and a small group of volunteers have been feeding LA’s homeless, which is a beautiful thing on its own but  he takes it one step further. He created a program called The Work For Food Program, which gives the homeless the opportunity to sweep the streets every Sunday morning to earn extra food cards. After working for ten consecutive weeks they graduate to the next level. Over the course of a year of hard work they gain the opportunity to get help with medical and dental problems and even see a 3,000 bank account opened in their name while being provided with safe housing and help getting a real job. How amazing is that?

Jay requires something else from everyone in the program. He demands that they complete a random act of kindness each week. A simple reminder that a human beings true worth isn’t ever money but instead what we do for others. To witness people who have so little do this is inspiring.

I was also given the opportunity to hear the stories of two Work For Food graduates. They shared how they ended up on the streets, what it was like for them, how they found the program and what it did for them. They also shared what their lives looked like now. When they got to this part their smiles shined bright. They pulled themselves out from the lowest depths and earned their dignity back. I was so moved by their bravery, attitude, honesty and grace that I felt a little shaken.

After hearing their stories it was time to do what we had come to do and feed the 500 men, woman and children waiting for a meal. Each volunteer was given a job on the food line- mine was passing out Quaker Oat bars. We were told to make an effort to interact with each person considering they don’t get the opportunity to do so very often.  So with each person I handed an oat bar to I made a point to look at them straight in the eye and with as much love as I could offer. Every single one of them smiled back, read my name tag and said “Thank you, Kate”. Those 3 very simple words had never meant so much  or held as much weight.

I am beyond grateful I took the opportunity to contribute to Food On Foot, even in a small way. Even if it was just a smile. I hope in the next year I am lucky enough to witness many of these beautiful souls find their way back to the lives they desire. Because, who doesn’t deserve that?

As the volunteers were packing up the founder Jay left us with this Italian Proverb…

“At the end of the game, The King and The Pawn go back in the same box.”

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