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project 30 – amber

19 Aug

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Amber, 35

What would your 30 something self tell your 20 something self if you could?

Live life open-hearted and don’t try to fit into a mold. Work hard, trust your instincts and judgment and dedicate way more time to your dreams and way less time to finding temporary joy or romance. The biggest mistakes I’ve made in my career and otherwise were trying too hard to be something I’m not or trying to go down a path that wasn’t true to myself. Once I realized that I can create the life that I want, I actually did it and I was actually way happier.

What do you wish you took more seriously in your 20’s?

I was more serious about one career path rather than trying out many. I interned for everyone and wanted to try everything, which was great in some ways, but detrimental in others. I see people in their 20s now who are at the top of their game because they jumped right in and made themselves an expert even though they weren’t. I wanted to learn and work my way up the hard way. I did learn a lot, but I also wasted a lot of time. I think if I just trusted my gut, I would have moved faster.

What do you wish you took less seriously in your 20’s?

The search for true love. I now believe that love finds you when YOU’RE ready. If you are half a person, you won’t ever be complete until you find your other half. Your other half isn’t another person, it’s within yourself. Once you’re whole, you can give what you have to another.

Favorite memory from your 20’s?

There are so many great moments with my best girlfriends when I was living in Florida and New York City. We were so silly, carefree, emotional, supportive, compassionate & unsure of ourselves. It was a magical rollercoaster.

In your early 20’s where did you think you would be (work, live etc) by 30?

I wanted to be in a big city and in a fast paced high-profile position in fashion or art.

And where were you by 30? What did your life look like?

By 30 I had fulfilled that wish. I was working in fashion at big magazines with big stars. It was exciting, but I realized that the fast paced fashion life was not fulfilling for me. I realized I felt more fulfilled by working on my whole life, not just my career. I actually achieved that by slowing down.

Were you ever worried that it wouldn’t all fall into place?

I think that’s always a fear, but I trust the universe to lead me to the right thing at the right time.

What is the greatest gift about being a woman in your 30’s?

Finally feeling confident in my own skin! I think in your 20s you are working out who you are and by 30 you finally get it. It was nice when I finally saw myself clearly.

When you look out onto the horizon. What do you hope your life looks like at 40?

Being a mother who can share this experience and these memories with kids. I also look forward to my next career iterations, since by then I will be an expert!

What’s a quote/ saying you try to live your life by?

Surround everything with love.

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project 30 – cicely

30 Apr

Meet Cicely. Brilliant artist, brave soul, beautiful yogi, loyal friend, joyful human & one smart cookie. We became friends in Jr. High but we really became two peas in a pod in our mid 20’s when she moved into my West Hollywood neighborhood and oh, attached at the hip did we become. Seriously, it wasn’t a Friday night if we weren’t drinking two buck chuck in one of our living rooms while laughing hysterically. I love her. It’s as simple as that. She’s a beautiful bright light in my life. Enjoy getting to know her through her answers. My favorite line…”When I catch myself approaching situations with my child-self, I acknowledge and pause. I then ask my adult-self to turn on and lead the way . I TRUST in Me and Divine guidance.

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Cicely, 30

What would your 30 something self tell your 20 something self if you could?

Take a deep breath. Trust YOURSELF.  You CANNOT live to fulfill other people’s ideas of who Cicely is.  Follow your heart  and intuition because even if your mind is telling you to go in a different direction everything circles back to your heart’s desires- the universe knows…

What do you wish you took less seriously in your 20’s?

The consequences of being me. I let a lot of people disrespect me and I disrespected myself because I didn’t feel I was worthy of love.
I began living by the ideas of what other projected onto me (who I am, what I should be doing with my life, what I should be focusing on for the future) rather than living my truth.  I would play myself down often because I thought that would be less intimidating and make me more acceptable to others. Lets just say some people I kept close in my high school years and around the time of my mother’s passing had a profoundly negative affect on my self-worth. Thankful for the harsh lessons because that allowed me to learn what it is to love ME even more now.

Favorite memory from your 20’s?

Yoga teacher training, 23… And meeting my partner, Louis, age 28 🙂

In your early 20’s where did you think you would be (work, live etc) by 30?

Honestly, I had no clue… Everything was so unclear. When I look back at my journals, I have many entries of wishing to live, paint, travel and teach yoga in a foreign country where people spoke spanish. When I was a teenager, I didn’t think I would make it to 30. Very morbid, I know. I just couldn’t see that far into the future… I hoped to be married, have dogs and children.

 And where were you by 30? What did your life look like?

I am 6 months into 30. I am living, teaching and painting in MEXICO!! I have a beautiful home that I share with my wonderful partner, two crazy dogs, no wedding ring yet  or children ( I trust it WILL come) and traveling.

Were you ever worried that it wouldn’t all fall into place?

I am a yoga practitioner/instructor, but that doesn’t by any stretch of the imagination mean that I am cool and calm 100% of the time. Actually, I worry the nonsense out of things more often than not. When I catch myself in the moment of worrying I say, “STOP”, take a deep breath, sing “everything’s gonna be alright” a couple times, recite the serenity prayer, and then gayatri mantra. This is a DAILY practice- believe it or not. hahaha! I thought things would never fall into place, but then I began writing daily notes when there was evidence that even small things would work out i.e getting the parking spot I wanted and then the meter was BROKEN so I didn’t have to pay; a friend inviting me to tea; a nice interaction with a stranger; A surprise invitation to move to  Mexico with Louis,… All  these things- past and present- negated my daily anxieties.

What is the greatest gift about being a woman in your 30’s?

I don’t feel like life is happening to me- I feel like am a deserving co-creator of my life. I own my power, stand in my truth and show up for MYSELF. When I catch myself approaching situations with my child-self, I acknowledge and pause. I then ask my adult-self to turn on and lead the way . I TRUST in Me and Divine guidance.

When you look out onto the horizon. What do you hope your life looks like at 40?

Oh man! I want to have a fulfilling marriage,  abundant family life with our children, an explosive and prolific career ( I want to be the Oprah of Fitness and Kandinsky meets  Frank Ghery of art), live in a beautiful home near a body of water, have a vacay home for retreats and family getaways, continue to have opportunities to travel, be surrounded by loving family and friends.

What’s a quote/ saying you try to live your life by?

Don’t make me choose!!! I’ll give you my 3 most favorite:

“Whatever you can do or dream, you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.”

-Goethe

Fave since 10th grade: “…envy is ignorance; Imitation is suicide.”- Ralph Waldo Emerson

“… Thoughts become things, dreams do come true, and all things remain forever possible.”- The Universe

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