I woke up at four in the morning today and not because I wanted to. Sometimes I don’t even realize that i’m even stressed or overwhelmed until the quiet of the night finds me. When I wake up in the dark silence of my bed and my head won’t stop running through fears, stresses, concerns and regrets. This morning I was filled with thoughts about money stresses (ones that haven’t even happened yet but what if? You know?), wedding stresses (will this day actually go smoothly?) and work stresses (mostly fears that certain things won’t turn out the way I wish and hope) Everything felt so mind numbingly overwhelming in that moment. I could feel my breath quicken. My brows begin to furrow. I rolled over and placed my hand on Brian’s and listened to him breathe peacefully. I realized in that moment how grateful I am to have a life partner. It’s such a gift. A few years ago I remember waking up with some of those same scary thoughts running through my head in the dark of the night and feeling so alone in it all. No matter how scary the unknown feels sometimes having a partner to hold your hand through it makes such a difference. Even if he doesn’t know he’s holding your hand in that moment. It still counts.
When I finally rolled out of bed and to my computer to tackle some emails I received two emails that made me smile. Sometimes the universe knows how to remind you everything is indeed ok. Your are safe. Things are always working behind the scenes. And to Trust. Stay in the flow.
One was from a new friend and it read…
The Universe
365til30.com 
“No matter how scary the unknown feels sometimes having a partner to hold your hand through it makes such a difference.” ❤ Even if he doesn't know he's holding your hand… :')
Take a deep breath it will always work out. This I know and keep holding that hand:)
I love getting those faith-renewing reminders ❤