Fact: I am a goal orientated person (maybe this is clear considering I write a blog about conquering goals) and I like to “make sh*t happen”. I also happen to think I know exactly how things should unfold, and when stuff doesn’t go according to my grand plan,I get a little, well, frustrated. Ok, maybe I get a little mad and I hate being mad.
Because being mad at the universe is soooooo missing the point, right? It is also a very slippery slope for me- I mean, I almost had a meltdown this week at the nail salon because my massage chair was broken (I guess I was really looking forward to it).
I felt like the universe was against me!
When I start to feel all bent out of shape because I am not getting what I think I deserve, I call upon the “other” part of me- the part of me that knows deep down that everything is indeed unfolding as it should. When I look back at my life so far, everything has always unfolded perfectly…even when I couldn’t see it while I was in it.
I was telling my friend, Rachel, all about how I was feeling before we went to a yoga class Tuesday night and she shared this quote with me…
“Praying for a specific outcome implies uncertainty, praying for the highest good implies faith”- Gabrielle Bernstein
So I am going to trust the process, enjoy the ride and stay present.
When I start to feel this way I also like to write a list of things I am grateful for because..gratitude turns what we have into enough.
Grateful List 8/30/12
I am grateful for the love of a man I admire, adore and love. A man who is a true partner to me in every sense.
I am grateful for my family- they are so incredibly supportive and loving.
I am grateful for all the women in my life, my dear sweet friends who challenge me and make me laugh
I am grateful for all the opportunities this blog has brought into my life
I am grateful for my living space 2 blocks from the beach
I am grateful that I find inspiration and joy in the little things
I am grateful for every little, crooked, backwards, happy, joyful, lesson filled path that I have walked down so far in this life
I am grateful I call myself a writer now
I am grateful for white dahlias
I am grateful for my health
I am grateful to be able to take a yoga class everyday if I want to (even if I don’t)
I am grateful to be going to Nepal in November
I am grateful I find humor in so many things
I am grateful for my blessings
“Happiness is itself a kind of gratitude.” – Joseph Wood Krutch