I was in a crappy mood on Wednesday- I find it’s impossible to be positive ALL the time. I also find that it becomes exhausting to attempt to will myself out of my crappy mood and much easier to just accept what is. I also decided it best to save others from the pain of my company and take it as a sign that it was the perfect night to start my once a week artist dates…with myself. It was 4pm…hmmm what should I do with my night? Ah-ha! See the film “Beasts Of The Southern Wild” of course! I had been dying to see it for a few weeks but I hadn’t been able to find the time.
The plan went as follows…
First a yoga class (good for crappy moods), then sushi (even better for crappy moods especially when paired with a glass of white wine), & lastly, a movie (paired with salty popcorn).
Once I had decided on the plan, I immediately perked up. I’m taking myself on a date! I looked forward to spending a whole six hours just doing me. After my much-needed yoga class, I strolled over to a fancy sushi joint and sat proudly at the sushi bar (in my sweaty yoga clothes no less) and ordered away. I managed to take one photo (not much of a photo either) before my phone died. Doesn’t it make you feel like you were there with me??
I’m actually happy my phone died because it forced me to sit in peace without the distraction of facebook, twitter, blogs, texts, instagram and emails. Just me, my sushi and the fulfilling activity of people watching. I’m a seasoned people watcher. I loooooove to people watch. So much so that I have been known to have a staring problem. It can be a bit embarrassing for those with me. I instead remain blissfully unaware of how rude I am being and get totally engrossed in the task at hand…people watching. I watched a couple argue. I watched two girlfriends gossip about their day. I watched two servers flirt behind the counter. I watched a couple sit through their sushi on their cell phones and I watched a little boy spit a mouthful of sushi out on the table. Life happening all around me and in that moment I was so happy I didn’t have to engage in any of it. I was just doing me.
After dinner, I cozied up with a bag of popcorn in a dark theatre and lost myself in a beautiful film for two hours. Sometimes you see a film that makes you feel so much that you wonder what you have been feeling during all those other films. “Beasts Of The Southern Wild” was one of those films…it moved me.Thank God I was alone because I was sobbing.
I could tell you a million reasons to see the film but I feel like I’d ruin it for you. So instead I will share three of my favorite Hushpuppy (the name of the little girl in the film) quotes below because each of them made me feel inspired, connected and alive. I think I’m going to really like these artist’s dates with myself.
When I got home, I cuddled up to Brian and told him that I wanted to name our first-born Hushpuppy. Hushpuppy Glodney
“I see that I am a little piece of a big, big universe, and that makes it right.”
“The whole universe depends on everything fitting together just right. If one piece busts, even the smallest piece… the whole universe will get busted.”
“When it all goes quiet behind my eyes, I see everything that made me flying around in invisible pieces.”