Guess who’s back from her mini blogging hiatus?! Me! I hope you guys enjoyed all the guest posts the last week. I know I did.
Let’s see, what should I fill you guys in on since we last spoke. Well, the world did not implode on my 30th birthday, much to my surprise. I had an amazing birthday weekend in Palm Springs with Brian. That boy really knows how to make a girl feel special. We did a lot of relaxing, eating (there is some seriously good Mexican food in that neck of the woods) and sangria drinking. Can you say perfection?
I have to admit though, that I was in a bit of a strange mood on my actual birthday . I felt such a rush of emotions that day and it wasn’t because I was turning 30 anymore (luckily I had finally made peace with that!); instead I was feeling sad that the project was coming to an end. It had become such a huge part of my life and I had conflicting feelings about it ending. There was a slight sense of relief. There was an overwhelming sense of gratitude for the amazing things that happened over the last year. There was a deep sense of accomplishment that I had finished the project. And then there was good old-fashioned sadness, although there weren’t tears. I was just quiet. I think I was a little shell-shocked.
I have been counting down to this big moment and then poof!- it was here and I didn’t know what to do with myself. I felt sad to see it end. I went to bed on my birthday wondering, what next? I tossed and turned getting more and more anxious about everything. But once the dust settled and the initial shock wore off on Monday, I began to feel a shift and felt incredibly peaceful with where I was, especially after having a session with Maggi when she reminded me that it’s not over, it’s just changing and growing. She also reminded me that there is a time to put energy out (which I have been doing non-stop the last year) and a time to go in. There is a very rich place to be found in the quiet.
So this last week I have allowed myself to stop and recharge.
People keep asking me if I am going to keep blogging now that I am 30 and the answer is yes. I really love blogging- it forces me to stay present in my life and it helps me connect to others and I get so much from this. I also just love writing. So yes, I am going to keep blogging. I am even going to keep the title 365 til 30, despite the fact that I have turned 30. It’s my blog and I am taking that creative license! I also happen to think the fun is only just beginning…the journey of a new decade.
I will say that I really like being 30 so far. As silly as this sounds I feel a little different…30 feels a little different.
I was talking to somebody the other day and they were going on and on about how much they loved their thirties-it was when they built a home and had children, became more comfortable in their own skin and built their career. I smiled and thought to myself…that is exactly what I am looking forward to in this decade.
My twenties where oh so much fun but oh so very exhausting. I’m actually surprised I survived them! That’s not even a joke. It was a bit touch and go there for a while!
So back to the blog- I am working on putting together my new list of goals for the year this week! Stay tuned…